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Lessons in Seeing
by Dawn Baumann Brunke

I recently found a book I bought ages ago, as a teenager. The book is about learning how to draw. I have always wanted to draw in an artistic manner, to faithfully ‘translate’ a visual image of that which I see before me—faces, mountains, swooping ravens—onto paper. 

 

Paging through the book, I recalled the reason I bought it and, perhaps, why I kept it. Several pages featured drawings made both before and after the students—not artists, but regular folks like you and me—began the series of exercises described in the book. It was amazing to me how someone who only knew how to draw stick figures one day could, after only a few weeks of sketching exercises, draw in a realistic manner that was really quite good.

 

Unfortunately, the teen-age me never did get through the whole book. I stopped about a third of the way, irritated by the numerous exercises that each took a good half hour or more to complete. Where was the magical transformation? Like most of us, I wanted it right away!

 

For some good reason, however, I kept the book. I’m a Scorpio, after all, determined even if things don’t go my way. And so it was with a small smile that I began rereading. It seems my much older self must have acquired a certain degree of patience over the years, for as I resounded with the author’s upfront assertion that learning how to draw isn’t so much about drawing but about learning how to see, I intuitively knew that this was going to take some time—not just time in the sense of minutes and hours, but a certain commitment to deep, quality time. I thought of the painter Georgia O’Keefe and something she once wrote that has always stuck with me: “Nobody sees a flower really—it is so small it takes time—we haven't time—and to see takes time, like to have a friend takes time.”

 

It’s nothing new, of course, that depth of vision requires depth of self, that everything we come to know ‘out there’ is in direct reflection with the level of our perceptions ‘in here.’ So, too, it isn’t necessarily what we see that changes when we deepen in ourselves; rather, it is the way in which we see. In his classic The Doors of Perception, Aldous Huxley put it this way: “To be shaken out of the ruts of ordinary perception, to be shown for a few timeless hours the outer and the inner worlds, not as they appear to an animal obsessed with words and notions, but as they are apprehended, directly and unconditionally, by Mind at Large—this is an experience of inestimable value to everyone.” 

 

Learning to draw, like learning to see, is a private affair. It is also something that is much more about who we are than what we do. And, it is something that only we can give to ourselves. As J. Krishnamurti noted in You Are the World: “In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, then the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself.” 

 

This is always the paradox, isn’t it? Learning to see, opening to enlightenment—it is always right here, right now—though to truly free ourselves to that awareness means that we must be willing to see the grandness of who we really are. And, for us humans, this takes time.

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Dawn Brunke is the editor of Alaska Wellness and author of Animal Voices and Awakening to Animal Voices: A Teen Guide to Telepathic Communication with All Life (see www.animalvoices.net for more).

 

What Do You Want? 

Susan Driggers  

If you could have anything that you wanted, what would it be? A new car?  A million dollars? A healthy body?  A meaningful relationship?  And, if you had these things that you want, what then? Would you be happy? Maybe, maybe not… 

 As you consider your answer, take it one step further: If I had that, what would it give me? For example, if you had financial success, what would it give you? Possible answer: freedom from worry. If you were free from worry, what would that give you? Possible answer: peace of mind. The point here, of course, is to go beyond the initial answer and find what it is that you are truly seeking. Most of us will arrive at an answer having something to do with happiness, peace, love or something more expansive than money or things. 

The problem that many of us in our society face is being so busy in our lives that we don’t take time for introspection or simply “being” in the moment. There’s the deadline at work, the dog to walk, the meal to cook, the yard to mow, the kids’ practices, etc. We fill up our lives with so many have-to’s that there is precious little time for exploring and doing what we really desire.  

At some point, we go onto automatic pilot and often forget that there is anything else out there but all these “things.” We feel trapped and have little attention, will, or energy left for anything else in our lives but the busyness of day-to-day routines and chores. We lead a rather zombie-like existence, dreaming about someday when we’ll be able to retire, not be in school, or not have this or that responsibility. 

Sometimes I find myself not even enjoying whatever activity I am doing, but thinking about what to do next, and then after that, and after that. I don’t have attention on where I am and what I am doing because I am already moving onto the next thing. My attention becomes scattered and I feel overwhelmed by how much there is to get done, or I have no clear direction or focus. When this happens the result is often that I don’t accomplish the things I set out to do or I do them in a haphazard way and there is not a sense of completion or fulfillment.  

So, what is the answer to this dilemma?  How do we have more of what we want now?  Harry Palmer, an educator who has extensively explored consciousness over the past two decades, developed Avatar®, a set of experiential tools to assist us in this endeavor. Palmer developed his materials for the purpose of teaching people an effective technique for improving life according to our own self-generated blueprint.   

 Awakening our own will and learning how to control attention are essential in regaining control of our lives. For example, one simple exercise called “Awakening the Will” (from ReSurfacing: Techniques for Exploring Consciousness by Harry Palmer) can produce calming and increased awareness.  The instructions are: (1) take a walk; (2) notice something; (3) decide how you would describe it; (4) move on to something else and decide how you would describe that. Continue the exercise for 20-30 minutes.  If you become aware of being distracted, simply return to the exercise without any self-criticism.  Even doing this exercise for a few minutes can restore calmness to an extremely busy mind. 

As this exercise reveals, one way to gain more control of our lives is by learning to control our attention and will!  We can develop this skill in our daily lives and in all of our activities by simply focusing our attention, deciding what things we really need to do and want to do, breaking up large projects into doable steps, and being aware of each moment and living in it. As Palmer notes, “To a far greater extent than common knowledge would lead anyone to believe, people’s happiness, health, and success are not determined by the thoughts, ideas, and imaginings they have of themselves, but are determined by the ability to change these things.”  

I began my Avatar path in 1996 when I took a ReSurfacing workshop.   I discovered a transparent belief (one that we have but is unknown to us) that was affecting my life. It was: “I’m only worthwhile if I make money.” This “aha” moment was a turning point and I couldn’t wait to take the entire course and discover what other surprises were in my consciousness waiting to be explored.    Avatar has enabled me to change things in my life that weren’t working, live more deliberately, and create the life that I want. I continue to explore myself through the use of Avatar tools, and assist others in their journeys of self-discovery.   

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Susan Driggers is a Licensed Avatar Master, Retired Registered Nurse and Social Worker. For more information e-mail driggers@gci.net, phone 349-2968, or visit the website, www.avatarepc.com

 (Avatar and ReSurfacing are registered trademarks of Star's Edge International, Inc.  All rights reserved.) 

 

Accident or Incident? 

Denise Knapp

 

Do you want to have accidents in your life, or incidents that are positive? It is your choice.

Did you ever have a shocking experience only to later wonder, which is it: an accident or an incident? When I totaled my car two years ago, a friend from the metaphysical community asked me that very question. I really had to think about it. Was it an accident? Not if I believe that everything happens in perfect order. Well, then, maybe it was an incident. Does everything happen the way it is supposed to happen? Do I really have that much control over my life, or am I doing what Spirit/God/Buddha (whatever term you wish to call the powerful almighty) has planned for me. Or is it both? Am I in control of my life as long as I believe in the power of God and the Spirit within me?

Not too many years ago, I was attempting to live that philosophy, i.e.: to accept that everything happens the way it is supposed to happen. I was partly doing so to justify why certain unpleasant (learning) experiences happened in my life. I now live that philosophy because I know it is true. I know I can decide to be happy or sad, take someone else’s derogatory comment personally or not, look at events as negative or positive—and even try to figure out what lesson I am receiving from each experience.

Still, it really boils down to the fact that I can be in control of my life as long as I let go of my learned bad habits, and know that my life is already planned for me. All I have to do is live it. When I put positive instead of negative thoughts out into the atmosphere, I am rewarded with positive experiences.

An example: when I totaled my car, I hit an ice patch under an overpass while traveling north on the New Seward highway. I could have swerved to the left; however, I would have involved another car. I remember thinking, “Okay, God, I am in your hands.” I then relaxed and let the car hit the embankment and flip upside down. Within 30 seconds, a pediatric nurse appeared (most likely from the car I elected not to take with me), then an EMT, and a second EMT. Many days later, I realized they were my guardian angels. Also, the angel medallion hooked on my sun visor landed on the floor where I could see it while hanging in the seatbelt upside down.

It was interesting that I had been on my way to a much-needed massage. After the accident/incident, the insurance company sent me to a chiropractor and I received a total of three massages over the next few weeks. Another curious element was that three days before, I had mentioned to some co-workers my car mileage had just turned 100,000 and did they think I should get a newer car? My totaled car brought in more dollars than I had paid for it three years earlier. Is all this coincidence?

Was it also coincidence that I had been to the used book store that day and had purchased Louise Hay’s book on positive body affirmations? Was it coincidence that I had read an affirmation protecting every body part while letting my dog run around the tennis court to get some exercise? Was it coincidence (even though my dog always rode everywhere with me in the car) that I did not open the hatchback this time, and he did not stop and demand to get into the back, but bee-lined for his kennel instead? Was it coincidence that some glass vases I had loosely packed in the back of the car were thrown from the car and did not break?  

With these facts in mind, would you say that I had a car accident? My conclusion was that my metaphysical friend was right: it was not an accident, but an incident—in fact, a very positive incident!

Do you want to have accidents in your life, or incidents that are positive? It is your choice. Think about it before you blame others for something that has happened to you. Can you imagine how much this philosophy might relieve the stress in our lives—if all of us looked for the positive in everything and everyone?

The next time you have an accident, think of it instead as an incident. Look for the positive in each situation. Tell everyone what a good experience it was and what you learned from it. See if it does not change your outlook on life and eliminate ‘accidents’ from ever happening!

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In Anchorage for 26 years, Denise Knapp has worked in health and childcare. She owns A Rabbit Creek B&B & Antiques, and is an independent distributor for mangosteen fruit juice. 345-0733; winwin@alaska.net; www.mygotools.com/xango/winwin.

 

The Observer Self

Bruce Bibee

One of the ways you know you’re dealing with spiritual stuff (rather than just fantasy or magical thinking) is because you’re operating from the Observer Self.

For those unfamiliar with the term, Observer Self, here’s the theory. There is your brain (organic and wonderful). There is your mind (problem-solving processes which function through the medium of the brain). There is your awareness (or lack thereof; or the development thereof which leads to self-awareness). There is consciousness (a vast field within which awareness swims; this leads to self-consciousness, which evolves to Self-consciousness and is the goal of the spiritual disciplines).

When one becomes self-aware, this condition presupposes that “you” are external to your own ego. This is so because you can observe your inner dialogue, and you can only do that if you’re outside looking in. In other words, you now hold your own ego and its processes as objects in your field of consciousness, rather than as a subjective reality (e.g., identified with your body, thoughts, feelings, or patterns of behavior).

In short, you are watching yourself think, feel or do. But, one must wonder, where am I that I can do that? On what platform am I standing so that I can objectively look into my own workings? Isn’t this the pathological state known as “dissociation?”

In answering this question, we start getting into the fun part of this topic, because the answer is, “yes and no.” Yes, in the sense that mainstream psychology has no other way to define this objectification of one’s ego. If you’re outside your mind/body observing yourself, well, you’re not supposed to be out there, because there is no “out there” for you to be. And, the mainstream folks know, heavy-duty stress or trauma (such as rape, combat, or even car wrecks) can produce this out-of-body sensation or illusion. So, there can’t be anything really good about it. After all, it’s produced by extreme circumstances.

In sum, dissociative episodes are produced by extreme fear. We bounce out of our bodies when we are totally freaked out in some way or another. And when we are out of our bodies, we can see our bodies getting raped, shot at, tossed through the windshield, or whatever. Eventually, when the dust settles, we go back into our bodies and deal with the result of the trauma. (Or, we can stay dissociated most of the time because we can never trust the human condition again—which I’m not going to address in this article.)

There is another way out of the body. This way is never pathological, and it’s the only way you can actually get to the Observer Self anyhow. It’s through self-compassion. And the process usually begins when you start monitoring your internal dialogues (what is oftentimes called self-talk), with the purpose of interrupting how you talk yourself into doing stupid stuff.

As you get more comfortable observing yourself (in essence, more identified with the Observer), you also end up with a healthy detachment from your own ego. It’s the kind of detachment that gives you the perspective to actually take better care of yourself than ever before (as you are less impulsive or ego-driven than ever before). Paradoxically, this makes you even more self-compassionate and self-nurturing, as well as more demanding of your best in all things.

Somewhere along the line, though, you become aware of this rather strange situation. You are, after all, not operating anymore from the normal narcissistic self-indulgence of our age. You will begin to feel out of place in the soap operas “normal” people call “life.” So, what do you do?

Most of us find relief in some sort of meditative practice. (See: Lawrence LeShan, How To Meditate. It’s a good primer on this topic.) Through meditation, we strengthen our association with the Observer Self. Then, once we are secure there, we find that the Observer Self is the “vehicle” we use to explore the various dimensions of spirit, of which there are generally acknowledged to be four: Nature mysticism, Deity mysticism, Formless mysticism, and the Great Mystery. This will be discussed in the next issue.

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Bruce Bibee is a licensed professional counselor and a kung-fu instructor. You can reach him at 562-1242.

 

Simple Questions

Kimberly Chancey

 

 

We know that a loving world is preferable than a non-loving one. But why, exactly, is that so?

A few months ago, someone asked me some fascinating questions. First, why is it so important to love everyone? Second, why is it important to especially love ourselves? These are deceptively simple questions, requiring more than simple answers. In responding, I found myself revisiting some fundamental beliefs and understanding my answers in a new light.

Loving one another is a primary directive advocated by all enlightened philosophies across the world. Intuitively, we know that a loving world is preferable than a non-loving one. But why, exactly, is that so? And why is it so important that we start with ourselves?

One of the most successful aspects of parenting my children was summed up in our one and only family rule: We don’t hurt anyone—including ourselves. That simple philosophy helped us navigate every situation we faced during my children’s formative years. So, how can we as a community adapt and transform this rule? What would happen if our one rule was: We love everyone—including ourselves?

A Course in Miracles (as well as many other philosophies) teaches that there are only two basic emotional states: love and fear. All other emotions are aspects or colors of these basic two. One interpretation of choosing love is via removing ourselves from living in a state of fear. Sometimes, in our dualistic thinking, love is misperceived as being weak. Fear may be erroneously considered as the more powerful state. Quite the opposite is true.

The teachings of the Dali Lama, Gandhi, Dr. Martin Luther King, and other spiritual leaders give countless examples to show that love is the most powerful force in the Universe. However, love does not require condoning fearful, hate-filled acts. Nor does it require that we abandon defending ourselves when appropriate. Many of the most powerful martial arts originated in defense of holy ideals. We also know from the martial arts that when one enters into a fear-based motivation, one’s intuition and other spiritually-based gifts fail to operate, leaving one vulnerable to failure.

Convince yourself of the power of loving in using it to eliminate sources of fear from your life. For myself, I often find it necessary to face my fears directly. For example, several years ago I noticed that I feared being alone in a dark place. Intentionally, I put myself in that situation, choosing to go as my own loving protector, almost as a means of showing that there was not inherent danger. In response to that stimulus, I began having spontaneous memory recall of many events going back into my childhood. Upon seeing those events with my adult perspective, I was able to reassure the child whom still lives within me and, in essence, conquer the fear.

If we accept that we are energy, and that energy can be described in terms of frequency and intensity, then our emotional condition affects us deeply on many different levels. We are all composed of the union of four different bodies: the physical, mental, emotional, and etheric. Our physical body represents the things we do. It represents us on the three dimensional plain. The emotional body represents the things we feel. Our mental body houses the things we think. The etheric body is the subtle life-force body, which sustains the life of the physical body. It serves as the pattern for physical metabolic functions. It is the repository of life force, sometimes called ch'i, ki, prana, orgone or libido. The vibratory level we establish in any of our bodies is reflected on each of the others. So, if words are the language of the physical body, thoughts are the language of the mental body, feelings are the language of the emotional body, then vibrations are the language of the etheric body.

Vibrations can be seen to affect us as if we were like musical instruments. If we have a guitar whose strings are at rest, and we pluck one of the strings, the neighboring string will begin to vibrate in response. Similarly, as we change our vibration, the neighboring string (or, the people and world around us) responds. This reaction is an important feature in creating a peaceful world and also in attracting the things we desire in life: abundance, health, satisfying relationships. Physics teaches us that in time, one vibratory level or frequency will only co-exist with other elements that resonate in a similar vibration. We each have an effect on one another to draw each other into similar patterns or levels.

One of the most powerful tools we have in co-creating our world is to influence our own frequency. Elevating your frequency can be accomplished by intentionally placing yourself in the most powerful loving emotions, such as peace, joy, and compassion.

To find peace we must become peace. To find joy, we must become joy. Finding compassion means becoming compassion.

Loving yourself is the only way to initiate this process—to introduce the higher vibration and elicit the response. As we practice responding in positive, loving ways, it becomes more habitual and natural to us. The saints among us see only the loving and perfect being as they gaze on others. Such can be our goal, and our method of bringing Heaven to Earth.

Begin by loving yourself and forgiving every real or imagined offense, including things you may regret doing, things others have judged insufficient, and things you may have disliked about yourself. Look to all four of your bodies, the physical, mental, emotional, and etheric. Recognize that you are a unique creation, perfect for experiencing the life of your choosing, the life you came here to live. Truly love the Spark of Heaven that you are. In doing so, you will help to create a world that responds to that Divine Spark in everyone, a world of compassion and encouragement for all of our unique paths.

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Reverend Kimberly Chancey is an engineer, scientist, researcher and teacher. She conducts the Beloved Community Gatherings, also known as Anchorage Community Spiritual Gathering, based on the belief that Universal Truth lies in the unification of Human Understanding.

 

 
Receiving Messages: The Scenic Route
by Dawn Baumann Brunke
 
 

...why not use the guidance of one’s inner voice more consciously on a daily basis? How much more sensitive and aware of the interplay between our inner and outer worlds would we become?  

 

Not too long ago I received a very nice email from a young man in Amsterdam . He had read one of my books and wrote to share some of his experiences. We corresponded briefly and he encouraged me to read a book about dolphins and whales that he had found very enlightening. The book was fairly old and difficult to find as it was no longer in print. However, because of this young man’s enthusiasm for the book, I persisted and eventually tracked down a copy at a small metaphysical bookstore in the Midwest .

 

What was funny was that I had talked to the owner of this bookstore about a year prior. I had forgotten about this, however, until just after I called to place my order. When the same gentleman I had spoken to answered the phone, we were both very pleased to meet again in this way and pick up on our discussion from a year ago. This happened easily and naturally, as if not much time had passed at all. As we hung up, the man promised to send the book.

 

When the mail arrived a few days later, I opened the package from the bookstore to discover not only the dolphin and whale book, but also a 20-year-old paperback copy of a book about listening to one’s inner guide. The book store owner had included a note saying that he thought I might enjoy this one as well. And I did!

 

The book was written by a man who decided to use a seven-month stay in Europe as his “laboratory” for learning how to increase his awareness and listen at ever deeper levels to his inner guide. To make things really interesting, he chose to consult his inner guide on each and every decision—from which road to follow and which town, restaurant or campground to stop at, to which foods to eat and even where to purchase gas.

 

I loved that this writer was bold enough to give himself up to trusting at such deep levels for such ordinary things. Many of us know that we can use our intuition and inner guides to help us with big decisions, but we often gloss over the little decisions of the day and rely instead on routine and habit, or the dictates of our rational mind. Nothing wrong with that, of course, but then again: why not use the guidance of one’s inner voice more consciously on a daily basis? How much more sensitive and aware of the interplay between our inner and outer worlds would we become?

 

One of the explorer-author’s central beliefs is that the totality of all we ever need to know is all around us, or within us, all the time. All it requires is that we listen.

 

Can it really be so simple? Clearly, many metaphysical schools of thought concur and many different healing and spiritual traditions urge us to find and listen to that small, still voice within.  Like so many things in our world, this is really nothing new—just another way we can learn more about who we really are, if we choose.

 

I am grateful for the reminders to listen and look beneath the surface. Especially when such reminders come via the scenic route—a reader who recommends a book that I find through a book store, whose owner I used to know sends me a free copy of a book he thinks I might enjoy—with such stylish flourishes and twists.

 

As we move into winter and through the threshold of the upcoming New Year, may we remember to give ourselves the gift of quiet time.  May we send ourselves small reminders to listen to the voice of our inner selves and recognize the inner wisdom of others. The answers and messages we most need to know truly are all around us, all the time, in the most ordinary and fantastic ways. It is up to us to be present and open to receive.

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Dawn Brunke is the editor of Alaska Wellness and author of Animal Voices and Awakening to Animal Voices: A Teen Guide to Telepathic Communication with All Life (see www.animalvoices.net for more).