In high school I often had suicidal
thoughts, which led to self-abusive behavior. I believed nothing
could hurt me no matter how destructive I was. A few years out of
high school, I spent a summer in Vermont attending a sustainable
living workshop at Goddard College. I met many healers, but two
people in particular helped me clear my ‘thoughts’ and eliminate
that impossible, intense black hole I could never describe to
anyone. One person also did muscle testing on me to determine a
remedy: Black Cherry — a Bach essence. It calmed me down a lot. He
suggested I go to the chiropractor he worked with because I had just
strained my back in the workshop.
The chiropractor used acupuncture to resolve some of my situation.
He started by clearing my colon with needle placement on my calves.
He then adjusted my spine by literally pushing a herniated disc back
into place. Finally, with a low electrical current machine, my dark
thoughts instantly fell away without any need to understand the
"why" or "how." After one visit — and hours of crying — the weight
of negative thoughts had gone completely. I think the crying I did
was mourning the loss of that part of me, even if it probably was a
separate entity to begin with. The negative state of mind never
returned and I do not associate who I am now with that dark soul.
